Sunday, April 19, 2009
Laziness... Am I really lazy or is it something else?
So here I am standing in the shower washing my hair and it is coming out in strands of knots. Now before I started on my journey to better health my hair would fall out like this all the time. So really it wasnt something new or alarming, it just made me start thinking about how maybe if I actually brushed my hair 2 times a day instead of 2 times a week maybe it wouldnt come out so much in the shower and stick to me. Then I started thinking about how lazy I am about taking care of my appereance, brushing my teeth, hair and washing my face on a daily basis. Hell I only shave under my arms and my legs in the summer. I am not lazy about my food choices, my logging every thing I put in my mouth, planning meals, doing my chores around the house and cooking dinner. So why am I so lazy about all that other stuff? I don't know, it could be that I don't really go anywhere to brush my hair or teeth so why should I bother. Then it got me thinking about how I was so fat that My Lovely BF would have to get a bucket and bring into the room and shave my legs for me, clip my toe nails and brush my hair. I am not sure if this has anything to do with it, because I can do all these things on my own now and it is wonderful. AM I just really that lazy, or is it that I don't care about how I look, or if my teeth fall out, or my skin is red and dry. I mean I care about my health and how my body composition affects it. I dont want to be fat anymore, I want to stop taking all these medications and I want to stay healthy eat healthy and be active forever, so why cant I take that much pride and pay more attention to these other things? I used to really not care about any of these things I would dress comfortably (which to me and some other people would be considered slobish and Frumpy) now I like to look good and stylish at least in my wardrobe. So here I am again asking why I dont take care of my teeth, hair, face and shave on a regular basis???