Wednesday, November 4, 2009

First blog in 14 days

I have not written a blog post in awhile, mainly because I felt as though no one cares what i write about anymore and it hurt. I went off the wagon yet again and this time it was only 3 days and I gained back 5 pounds again... This time of year is always so bad for me and it seems worse this year than any and I am using any excuse to not workout and to eat all the leftover junk from Halloween. I am actually doing better i let myself have 1 piece of candy a day and we have gone for a bike ride 2 days in a row, 4 miles one time and 11 1/2 the second time, today was 8 1/2 miles because my legs were on fire and so sore I just couldn't make it any farther. Im trying to get and stay back on track for good this time. I know that life is always going to throw something at me and right now I am very stressed out and I know it is all about how I deal with the stress and other things that are thrown at me, I just sometimes wish I could take the time to deal with what I am feeling instead of eating crap that at the time feels like I am filling a void. And why do I feel like i need to fill a void, what is going on that I feel this way...


  1. I admit that I'm a long-time-lurker-and-never-commenter... or at least I have been so far. Just wanted to say that there ARE people who care what you write about. And that I can relate. Keep your head up!

  2. I know the feeling. some days I wonder... why do i blog. no body seems to read it... No one seems to comment... A lot of days, i feel all alone. Especially since I got pregnant during my journey. And then, i remember that i blog for me. Instead of pen to paper journaling, i put my fingers to the keyboard. I hope someone reads my blog and can relate (like alea) and some day that someone will let me know, hey soul sister... I get it, i'm here with you. But in the end... the question is, why do you blog, who do you blog for? You have 64 followers, there's a reason for that. :) People want to hear what YOU have to say. How YOU feel and how YOU are doing. take pride in that :) You deserve that following. :):)

    And I know what you mean about falling off the wagon; I've been feeling like that for 4 months now. But I guess i see it as you didn't fall off. If you Give up for good... that's falling off the wagon isn't it? having a step backwards is just that... I hault in your wagon... a rock under your wheel. the great thing is that YOU are picking yourself up and moving your wagon forward. . :) proud of you Becca and I hope you are proud of yoruself. :)

    BTW... have you been taking anything in relation to your SAD? I've been hearing a lot about taking a vitamin D supplement to help counter balance SAD. Just wondering. If you aren't, maybe research it and see what you think. we all need a little help some times. :)

    Keep up the good work. And hopefully, your devoted followers will hear from you soon. :) I know i can't wait. :)

  3. Becca we DO CARE! Please don't think we don't!

    I am with Alea. I know there are people that read and don't comment. I recently added a map to my blog to actually see where people where viewing from and it is literally all over the world! You would be surprised! Oh and then there are the anonymous followers...

    Glad your back and if you are gone for more then a few days from now on I am going to be "knockin"

    P.S. Any October pictures?

  4. Becca, people care! I know I do...sometimes I just don't know what to write to someone or I start to write and I can't get into a sincere flow of words and erase it all. Please keep moving, keep going forward! You can do it! :o)

  5. I just wanted to say that blogs like yours have inpired me to start my own. So, please don't think that no one is out here caring or reading. We do and are!

  6. Yay for new pics! Thanks Bec

    Where was the bike ride pic taken? Is that the Sacramento river? Looks like a great place to ride a bike.

  7. Its part of the american river its off of garden-arden highway and Northgate. It is a very nice bike trail and it stems 32 miles :) only gotten to 3.5-4 miles of the actual trail because it is another 3.5 miles just to ride from the house to the actual bike trail. We try to get in at least 10 miles there and back.

  8. Hey Becca,

    I'm new here and look forward to reading about more of your journey. Thank you for sharing your story with the rest of us.

    Have a great weekend!

  9. I read and I do comment. You can do anything. The proof is wahat you have already accomplished.

    Way to Go!

    Secretia (Secret Story Time)