Wednesday, February 25, 2009

in a bad place

I started off the day good today, I ate breakfast let it settle for an hour then I did my cardio, well half of it anyways.. had to pick up my mom from work she has been sick. When we got home I finished the other half and did a extra few mintues. Then we went to target again to return the faucet filter we got, and just decited to get the pitcher water filter instead. Things were going ok, because the SO actually got out of bed at 10 with me and didnt sleep all day... We have hardly talked all day and I have been cooking and cleaning the house all day, what has he done? Sat on his ass on the computer since we got home from target and that was at 3pm... I dont know how much more of this i can take, Im trying the approach of just doing my own thing and not trying to worry about what he is doing or not, but it is really hard.
I feel like I am slipping back into a severe depression like i was in when I was 300 pounds and unhappy. This is not a good feeling at all, i dont like the place I am in right now its scary.


  1. Snap out of it! Easier said than done, I know.
    I've been struggling too over the past week or so. You need to keep focused and remember that you're doing this for your happiness and health! Start off tomorrow with a new outlook. Things are going to get better!! Keep your head up!

    <3 God Bless!

  2. Well, the cold response would be: then do something about it.

    Awe, Becca... it sucks that you feel this way. You know what you have to do. I suggest sucking in a deep breath and just doing it.

  3. Please see if you can get someone to lend you a hand.
    I know so well that SNAP OUT OF IT!! doesnt work.


  4. MizFit has a good suggestion. Seek help. From what I can understand, your state has a mountain of free assistance.

    If you're not ready to do it now, how about just looking into it and starting a list of your available resources.

    Either way, please stop overwhelming yourself by worrying about what other people are doing. You have enough on your plate dealing with yourself. Take heart though. This is true for every one of us.