Tuesday, February 17, 2009
I hate being in a Funk, I feel like Im letting myself down!
So Here I am again in a huge funk... I binged, i slipped for days on end and what do I have to show for it? 7 pounds gained in 11 days YIKES!! I keep going over my calories eating stuff I shouldnt eat and I am paying for it. This really does suck, I mean im not trying to beat myself up or looking for sympathy, I know in my heart that it has been a hard couple of weeks. Ive been through so many bad things since Dec, loosing so many people that are close to me, now we have 3 months to find somewhere to live. I guess if I really think about it, it could be so much worse I could have gained more than 7 pounds easily. I just cant get back on track no matter how hard I try, the weather really really sucks, its so cold and Im having a hard time with eating the right things, and getting my butt in gear to excersise. Im still doing my 12 minute daily dozen, Im adding 12 more minutes of cardio to each day, and riding the bike, but its not enuff because I am gaining weight and my fat pants are getting too tight. I know when I am stressed I put on a ton of fat in my belly and back area. Blah, I dont want to give up, but I just cant find my groove. I feel like I am using the bad weather and all the stress from the heartache as an excuse...Im going to pray tonight and hopefully within this week i will get back on track... helps that the Fat food is gone from the house, minus the chocolate strawberry kiss cake that i am going to go throw away tommorow.