Monday, September 14, 2009
I must have ate a Million calories this weekend... whole cakes, bags of cookies,etc,etc BINGE CITY!!!
Wow have I been so depressed, I have had so many emotions running through me since thursday. I was a bad girl and I mean BAD, Bags of cookies for breakfast, Entire jars of Been & cheese dip, 3 bags of chips, Whole cakes, Pints of Ice cream, Candy bar after candy bar and thats just 2 days... And you know something, Food used to make me feel better, it used to fill the void of being friendless and lonely. Not anymore it didnt do a damn thing but make me feel Guilty and fat and more useless and depressed then I was before i ate it all. I weighed 190 pounds on Friday, I havnt logged my weight or food (my site has been acting too retarted since thursday so I havnt wanted to deal with it). I spun out of control and was so afraid I wouldn't come back. I guees it has to do with the changing of the season, the weather and being bored and lonely. I am back on track tho, We went to Deny's for Breakfast yesterday and I had, egg whites, fruit, wheat pancakes, 2 slices of bacon and 1 chicken susage patty. It was yummy and I was proud of myself for ordering wisley, I did drink like 8 glasses of water i never noticed how salty deny's was WHEW WEE it was terrible. I weighed myself this morning just to see where I was and it said 184.5 so I am more or less where I started on thursday before my depressive binge. I think I ate enough calories on friday and saturday to last me 2 weeks, the whole cake alone and the bags of cookies. I never want to do that again, I am feeling a little better, but I am still depressed and feeling lonely and bored.