Monday, September 21, 2009

Gah, why cant I get ahold of my life??

I really hate weekends, well not really I just hate that I think its ok to eat whatever I want and not do anything else. Blah I have food hangover and Im feeling shitty again. I just don't get why I am having trouble getting my life back in order. I know what I have to do but I just don't want to. Im still a fat ass and I have 60 pounds still to go before I can truly be healthy and not obese but I don't want to put in the work. I am just lazy and that comes from being a product of my Envoirnment, which I have no means of changing tho I desperatly want to. *sigh* such is life and I shall move on and just be I guess...


  1. Becca, I suggest you have a good long talk with yourself about what you want and what it's going to take to get there. Half-assing it isn't what got you down from that dangerous place you were at (at least I don't think it was). What inspired you back then? What made you dig down and find a huge source of inner strength? Whatever it was, I suggest you tap into that well one more time. Otherwise, I'd have to guess that you'll see a steady slide in the opposite direction you want to go. Yes, this is hard work. Yes, weekends are tough. But this is worth it, Becca. You're worth it.

  2. im with jack... need to find a way to get passionate about it... fired up and pissed off...