Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Its been a bad bad couple of days

Things have been crazy stressful as of late and I am going nuts. I have been binge eating and not doing any exercises. Today we went to lunch at Chevy's and I ate 3 baskets of chips and salsa, an entire Santa Fe chopped salad with Bacon, 2 oz of cheese and Apple chipotle vinaigrette and I also helped finish off my moms sizzling fajita plate and all the sour cream and Guac for the sides. I don't know what got into me but I have gone over my calories for 3 days now with all the wrong foods. I was doing so good, i let loose for 1 day this weekend and it just been all hell broke lose since then... I am hungry and will not eat because I had enough today and I am sick and I have a headache. I don't know why I do this to myself, I can do good for so long then BAM I just go off the deep end. I need mental help still to deal with my issues but still cannot find any resources for free in Sacramento with this shitty ass health care we have! Uggg Just a bad bad day for me, oh i went to the Dr today to follow up on my Ovarian Cysts and that is another freaking story I don't want to get into but good news is they are shrinking and hopefully will eventually go away.

7 comments:

  1. are there OA groups near you that you could go to? I know that feeling of just "fuck everything - I'm eating what I want" And the feeling of just giving up and watching as my eating spirals out of control.
    I hope you'll find the help you're looking for!!

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  2. Sounds like you're struggling a bit lately, but you've done well so don't beat yourself up too much. Just make today a new day..and make it count for something good. Hang in there!

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  3. Hi :) I had to comment because I do the exact same thing sometimes and I end up just falling off the wagon completely. You have done amazing and I wanted to say that I am just starting out and I am inspired by the change you have made in your life already. I really hope you aren't too hard on yourself, that just seems to start the downward spiral - for me anyway. Be a good friend to yourself and accept that sometimes we mess up, but we can move on. I am sending you a hug, 'cause they work for me :) Have a great day!

    Cara

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  4. I know where you are coming from. I am having that exact same feeling today. Hey everybody has a bad day. Just chalk it up and start over. :)

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  6. you would think that after dieting that having 1 good binge day would leave you happy and satisfied, but it doesn't seem to work that way, does it?

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  7. (my phone is carrying comments from one text box to the next one. Hence the wrong comment lol. Blogger + mobile phone = bad bad terribleness)

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