Saturday, May 15, 2010
another pound gone this week :)
I lost a pound this week so I am happy to be at 174. I have really been kicking my but with my workouts and making sure I drink tons of water and eat right. Come to find out my dear boyfriend who watches me workout and doesn't eat all his calories Loses 4 freaking pounds and in now considered overweight and not obese... MEN!!! So we decided to have a little leniency on the weekends and enjoy a drink or 2 I know this prolly isn't the best way to go about my healthy lifestyle, but I am feeling like I am still young and I want to enjoy life while I can. It is different because I am not using it to drown my pain anymore, but more a way to relax and DE stress. Things are getting a little better at home since I have learned to stand up for myself, but there is still a lot of work that needs to be done. I have 29 years of programing that I need to work through. I am no longer living up to any ones expectations but my own, even if it means I must disown part of my family it is worth it to me, they bring me down and try to start BS and drama and I don't need that in my life, besides I think they are jealous because I am my own person now with no obligations and I don't let them walk all over me anymore and it scares them. I do what I want and I am working on myself because I want to be truly happy and little by little it finally happening.