Monday, March 28, 2011
Finally a break in the dreary weather but how long will it last? I am afraid to get my hopes up and start anything new just get disappointed. On another note I have been taking care of myself with showing regularly and taking care of my teeth and my face. it makes me feel so much more feminine and also helps my self esteem which is another thing I am greatly working on as well. I have been logging for 2 days and eating good without feeling hungry or deprived of the soda and sugar laden crap I have been eating. I guess I forgot what it was like to eat good and feel good for it. There is still much to work on but I think I'm making great strides and breakthroughs with my issues. Doing it myself is deff stressful but to me it is better than not doing anything and blaming others when all along it has been my fears of change. I still feel like I don't deserve to be happy or healthy and that is something I am working on mostly because without that I feel like I would never get better or be able to move on. I know in my heart that I am human and a good person, I care way to much and that's one of my problems. But Baby steppes and I feel I will get there this time. I'm going to be 30 and I still feel like I am 16 ooo that's not so good LOL on some levels anyways. I hope everyone enjoys the day and this great weather we are having at the moment!!